I'm off to Japan!!!

Christmas has been very different but nonetheless enjoyable despite previous paranoia. I still miss spending it with family, and though i was at work, everything went smoothly and everyone was in a joyous mood so all was good. :)

Plus for the first time i attended church during christmas and really enjoyed myself.

I was dead by the time i reached home last night. Door 2 is no joke man. And did i mention not to ever buy shoes from Bata? My rubber soled ones are coming apart.

Anyway my mood fluctuates violently so thus the seething frustration from last night has dissipated. I have almost entirely packed for japan and my excitement is mounting by the hour too. Very exciting indeed, with the thought of being able to see snow in kyoto! Which reminds me I should go scrutinise the itenary when i return from Jurong point later. Need to go get some last mintue stuffs done.

Oh yes and all geographers!! Check out the earthequake that happened yesterday in the Indian ocean which measured 8.9 on the richter scale. Phenomenal. Though in the sea, it created tsunamis which swept away most coastal areas nearby. Wow.

Take care all, and a happy new year in advance!!!!

Thank you yans! You're a darl

My supp card application has been rejected.

My supp card application has been rejected.

Just because I am not a student studying overseas. Great. I was so happy and now I have plunged to the depths of sadness once again.

Supposed to meet my ex-colleagues for lunch but they stood me and mel up. I even bought chocs for them and so now i have to think of a way to get rid of those chocs without having them go into my mouth.

The sleeping beauty on ice was disappointing.

It's christmas eve but nothing seems to be going right.

side note: thanks gavin for the wonderful mug. :)

The botanical gardens was lovely. Sitting at the bench overlooking the pond whilst snacking on some unhealthy stuff was good. Haha we should more of such nature loving outings. I mean usually it's always orchard orchard city hall and blah.. going to somewhere full of trees was a nice change. Plus cher made us some really nice lime-based natu and yans brought some tea so the early wake up was well worth it. :)

Did my module registration at the orchard library. Haha all cos we got a bit lost as we were coming out of that ulu place and somehow the taxi driver took us for a spin (much to our dismay). But I'm pleased and satisfied, cos i've got my jap module!! And tracia has got it too so it's relaly nice. At least I would have known someone in the class already! Hesitated for a while on whether i should take a ge this sem, then hy told me that one of the geog modules were non-examinable thus i thought hey i might as well just finish off my 6aus man!

Catched National treasure just now with my parents, then I realised how come my mum had quite a fair bit of resent towards my dad. Firstly, he said he wanted to watch this show a few days back so we set today as the day we'd go and watch. Then suddenly last night he pulled out, but however somehow this morning he decided to go again. (fickle minded) Secondly, mum was damn late and he was a little late. He just took one ticket and went in first! Leaving me outside to wait for my mum. As in he didn't even offer to let me go in first. He just said oh i er go in first. -wth- Thirdly, he didn't even buy any snacks, I had to get tickets plus buy snacks. And fourthly he chided me in the foodcourt for some insignificant reason such that i could only roll my eyes and pretend he never said anything.

Really, sigh. And they always say your future bf would be something like your dad. Oh gosh let's hope i don't get such 'luck'. I'd rather remain a nun for the rest of my life.

Other than that, it's been quite a busy day today. Managed to send all the photos already so it's good riddance to you. yay! wahaha geeez. Anyway tmr i'm going to fly a kite!! if we manage to convince joe la that is, then it'd be the mushroom pot with mel and mw. Looking forward to that too.

I've really been quite a sad child isn't it. I've never been to the botanical gardens, nor fly a kite. -wallows in self misery-

Sarah went missing on me again. That girl....

Did i mention that the postmen are really effective nowadays? One day delivery. Wow I'm impressed. Heh so happy to receive thanks from people who have received my cards.. thanks to all who have sent or given me cards too! Let us all share the joy of christmas!!

But for the time being, hit the warm fluffy blankets first!

I am almost going frantic.

Been searching for the last half an hour but i just cannot locate my phantom of the opera soundtrack and it is driving me crazy. Because as of now I have a very big desire and craving to hear the wonderful vocals of sarah brightman after having forgotten about my soundtrack for quite sometime. And now that the movie is coming out, which i would go and watch for sure, it reminded me that i had that beautiful soundtrack.

BUT, I cannot damn find it and I think someone has borrowed it. So if anyone clears your house one day and finds the phantom soundtrack with that sleek black cover please return it to me!!! I really sigh. The fact that I cannot even find the cover means that someone has borrowed it and I cannot remember who.

Today started off great. I woke up, spoke to cher for awhile then went and did some grocery shopping at jurong point. Came back had lunch along with my daily dose of chinese serials, then I started baking, and I burnt my second batch. ARGH. Stupid me forgot to set the temperature right. I just pressed start therefore it started baking at it's highest temperature. Anyway so now the cookies are done! or rather 3/4 done since the other quarter is kinda wasted. Shall proceed with the muffins soon.

Still now i feel off balanced because i cannot find my cd. In the first place the root of my uncomfy-ness today is the fact that i agreed to go to something which i would rather have skipped. I am becoming increasingly anti-social. halleluia! Don't know why but i'd rather much just stay within my own close friends and not have to know new people in my life because I would have to incorporate them into my lifestyle. Maybe it was the brush with those persistent people that have set me back into not wanting to know more people.

Or maybe it's just a passing phase. (which i hope so)

But anyway next week I'll be off to Japan!! Did some shopping in KL and had lots of good food there too. Haha pilates never felt more tiring than it did yesterday, with the extra load of fat swirling about. Got all my stuff ready already, so I'm gonna start packing on wednesday perhaps.

Anyone wants anything in particular from japan? Please leave your orders in my tagboard or give me an sms!

Looking forward to our insanely early picnic tmr! haha... shall get to work on the muffins now. hope they turn out great

-shakes my own head at myself-

I have just commited a crime under the nunnery law and i despise myself to date. -feels like crapshit- I took Janice's advice and decided that yeah I should be friendly just one last time and shucks it really didn't go too well and I'm regretting it totally now. Perhaps a total ignoration would have been better. I even lied in what i said just to sort of create conversation topic. What the hell has become of the once-in- control me.

Sigh.

Well whatever it is, I am off to KL tmr!! And it's near 1am but I am not fully packed yet. Came back and found one pile of stuff for me from dad. haha he has damn bad taste in slippers seriously, but the pjs were pretty and i like them. Plus now I've got a few more t-shirts to wear to uni. yay!!!

Had fun catching up with Janice today. Sigh I missed that girl SO much!!! So we just talked and talked and talked, had the most divine dessert once again and chilled at the esplanade. Wahaha... she's always been one i can just pour my heart out to and I'm so glad she's back for a short hol :) Welcome back Jan babe!!!

Encountered some weirdo shithead on the way back though. -mutters-

Bought new shoes today!! and so I am now officially, b.r.o.k.e

*extremely traumatised*

Woke up to a lovely morning, had my lunch with a warm cup of milk cos it's cold today and then i enter my room and GASP. I see a full length cockroach sprawled on the floor with its legs up in the air and they are still moving.

Side note: I am to the greatest extent, totally disgusted with cockroaches and somehow they appear all the time at my void deck and I have seen (would rather not see) many different variations of the conventional cockroach thus causing me to look like a mad woman when i return home late at night cos i'll be looking to the ground and jumping about, sometimes doing a mini shuttle run.

Anyway paranoia sets in the moment i see the damned thing in my bedroom so i run to the kitchen, fetch the insecticide and sprays at the damned creature one million times before it ceases movement. Then i spray the entire house with insecticide such that it presently reeks of the not-pleasant-at-all smell and voila! I am still extremely traumatised that I may have spent the entire night with a full grown cockroach. YUCK. YUCK. YUCK. YUCK.

WHAT THE HELL IS A FULL LENGTH COCKROACH DOING IN MY ROOM ANYWAY.

Due to the nature of my dad's obsession with being neat and clean, we've always had a record of strictly no insects in the house except for a few random ants in the kitchen. Therefore now that a full length $@!##@!@# thing appears in my bedroom, I think i'm about to be in need of an oxygen tank to regulate my breathing.

ARGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sprays more insecticide.*

Just got off the phone with shell and i am still gasping whilst i sigh endlessly. Didn't really concern me and perhaps they would find true happiness but i still can't help but do a little sigh on my part. And i bet shell is sighing even more.

On to more sighs, I just watched a performance by the philharmonic chamber choir and they belted out so many christmas carols. Loved the hark! the herald angels sing... fa la la la la.... :) But as the songs went by one by one all of a sudden i felt sad. The fact that this year is gonna be a lonely christmas just left me feeling a bit down. I'd either be at home watching the telly or working at the esplanade if i manage to get slots that is. But sigh.. dawned upon me that every year I'd either be with my sis goofing around in search of a great dinner with dad as the sponsor, or be at some formal dinner with my family, or if not we'd be in KL having a good time with the rest of the extended family.

But it's different this year. Sis is away on Japan, my parents would be at my dad's company dinner and it's too short timing to go to KL cos I'd be leaving for Japan like 2 days after christmas. Most friends would either be having a romantic time with their other halves or would be having celebrations with their families. Which leaves the poor me, stranded with those 2 abovementioned choices. And therefore, i sigh. Sometimes i wish i stayed in KL or all of them stayed here. I'll never be lonely!

Well anyway, sadly mamma mia has come to an end. And i am grateful to the senior usher who let me swop places with her so that i could watch the performance one last time. I almost had an entire teardrop formed at the end of the whole show as they said their thank-yous and good-byes and sang the last bit of waterloo.. Guess I'll miss laughing at Rosie's ever-so-funny antics and grooving to the last bit of the show where they have a little song medley. :) Then i heard the next long running play that's gonna hit the esplanade would be the phantom of the opera. *mutters and curses under my breath*

My mum has started her nightly "singing". argggh.

Whenever i look at the flower that sits on my table, i feel like throwing it to the floor, trample it with my foot and then dumping it in the bin but i just cannot bear to. hopeless hopeless. After all I shouldn't take it out on an innocent looking flower isn't it.

I feel v.e.r.y off balance so let me rattle it all out.

But before that I shall give anne's cheesecake it's honour. One of the best cheesecakes I've had. The crust was not too hard nor too soft, and it had a tinge of ginger-ness in it with each bite! Philadelphia cream cheese with swirls of peach here and there at the top... and it was fantastic as a whole! Haha would have been better if we had nicer wine but oh well I am still swooning over the wonderful cheesecake and the meatrolls that tasted fabulous as well. Thanks anne for being such a good cook!!

On to the not so happy news, work was crap. And i feel even crappier now with one eye gone bonkers and i think it's yet another infection settling itself nicely within my right eye. I really sigh this time. S.I.G.H Half the day i'm almost bursting with glee but now as the day comes to an end (oh right it already has come to an end. its 0006 now) I feel like i can rip all my hair out and wish i never really lived on the face of this earth.

Day started off great though dad woke me up as he forgot his hp. Anyway i found out about the nice fat bonus and that dad had granted me a supplementary card of his manhattan card, which is perfect. Then mel came over and we had a mini cooking cum watch the prince and me session which was also all fun and smiles.

Then i trod off to work in replacement of someone who couldn't make it. Shell said i would have liked my position very much. So i was looking forward to going to work. Then as I left my house late with mel i decided to take a cab thinking it would have been faster. So we both hop into one and i drop her off at her place before making my way down to the espla. All goes smooth till the turning into Rochor Road and that's where the nightmare starts. My heart starts to thump faster with each passing minute as the rate meter keeps jumping up and the seconds tick away and i barely made it there on time.

The taxi fare cost me half my night's pay but that doesn't matter. I ran through the esplanade mall, did my fastest change of clothes and ran up to the concert hall. One million thanks to shell for having copied the details down for me. I wasn't sure if i needed a walkie so upon a check with my partner she said no thus i thought oh well that's great. As you would have guessed, yeah i needed one. And i was helpless as so many things had to happen at the area which i was assigned to.

3412312421 latecomers and i stupidly sorted them out, creating a mess in the middle of the show. Brain didn't register that i could have seated them at the back first to avoid the mess. VO had to come over to pull me out for a short chiding cos of my stupidity and that i couldn't be contacted. Blardy radio station that gave out tickets wrote crap on the filmsy piece of paper and some said foyer stalls but actually meant stalls. great.

And i just realised i forgot to confirm with cher about tmr's dental thing. arggh. I'm so sorry dear for being such a slip-shod asswipe.

Just steer clear everyone. I am really not in the mood for anything.